Were you laughing at me?

Did I entertain you?

I'm at home now. And no essays, please, cause I'm going to bed, right after this.

I saw Candy before homeroom, and she said we needed to talk at lunch. I figured it had something to do with the band, which I had really been out of the loop on, for the last 2 weeks.

I sat behind Ethan Craft in homeroom this morning, which is pretty rare. He and I were sort of flirting. He asked me how I was surviving the purgatory of teenage grounding, and I was telling him about my week. And then he told me something, and I told him he was wrong.

And he said he was sure, and I said he was lying.

The bell rang before Ethan could go any further, and I wasn't interested in listening, anyway. It started out as fun, just teasing, but he wasn't funny, anymore. On my way to first period, I saw Coach Martinez entering the gym, so I asked him.

I didn't go to History. I stopped off in the girls' restroom, and entered the nearest stall and closed the door behind me. I just stood there, then leaned forward, my arms outstretched in front of me, and rested against the stall door. I started having these...hot flashes...and my bangs grew sweaty. Guys, I NEVER sweat.

After about 5 minutes, I opened the stall and went to the sink and ran cold water. I just watched the water run down the drain for several minutes, before reaching under the faucet and splashing some on my face. I wasn't having the flashes anymore, and the water made me shiver.

I went to the office, and checked out of school, sick. I drove home, and just got in, a few minutes ago. The first thing I did was log onto the internet, and visit the sdsu website.

Ethan was right.

sdsu didn't play last night.

Randy…what can I say? Except…

I'm so sorry.

And believe it or not, it will get better.

Love you,
Candy

Posted 2/25/2005 at 12:04 PM by candyissweeter

Good old Candy. No laughter, just...pity, huh?

I see you took the time to post from school. That means that word's out at school, right?

You knew Ryan was lying to me, didn't you? That's why you didn't comment last night.

Whatever.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 2:06 PM by mirandasworld

Candy, I'm...just...so sorry, for what I said. I know you're trying to make me feel better, I know that up here.

But I'm tired, I'm sick, I'm bummed out. I feel like I've been humiliated. Not just at school, but in front of the...the world, thanks to this damn blog. The only thing this blog has ever done is show every one in the world that I'm an idiot.

I just want one guy to love me, and respect me, the way that I love and respect them, but that's not going to happen.

I wish I could just disappear, and I don't want to talk to anyone right now.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 2:41 PM by mirandasworld

Jesus Christ! What the hell is going on here?

First, you check out before first period, without saying anything to me about it.

Then, Candy's acting like a bitch to me all day, for no reason.

Then I come home and find out that you're all boo-hoo over a misunderstanding.

Can you calm down, just once, before jumping to conclusions, and assuming that I've been playing you? What is wrong with you?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:13 PM by iblong2u

What's the misunderstanding, Ryan? Tell me.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:16 PM by mirandasworld

While you were running your background check on me, did you think to check on whether the girls basketball team played last night? Phil's girlfriend is a freshman on the team.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:18 PM by iblong2u

Well, I'm going to be honest with you.

I don't believe you.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:19 PM by mirandasworld

Omg, Miranda, I just heard.

If Ryan's lied to you, then please dump him. You deserve way better than that.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:19 PM by pwk_lilsis

I'm not dumping him.

He's dumping me.

Isn't that right, Ryan?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:20 PM by mirandasworld

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:22 PM by animeprncss

He's gone.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:31 PM by mirandasworld

No I'm not. What do I have to say to convince you that our love is eternal?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:34 PM by iblong2u

Tell me the truth.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:35 PM by mirandasworld

Tell her, Ryan.

Or I will.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:39 PM by bethanybear

Nobody asked you, bitch. I'm talking to Miranda.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:40 PM by iblong2u

You're about to head off the deep end. Back up and punt, man.

Austin

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:41 PM by darkavenger

Miranda, you haven't asked for my opinion, so I'll keep my peace. But I want you to know that no matter what, no matter what, I'm on your side. You deserve that much.

And Ryan. You've got one more chance. You call Bethany a bitch just one more time, and your dick gets knocked in the dirt.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:46 PM by imurnitemare

Thank you, sweetie.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:47 PM by bethanybear

Thank you, Brody.

You always speak up at just the right time.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:47 PM by mirandasworld

Can we go into private chat?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:48 PM by iblong2u

Why?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:49 PM by mirandasworld

I just want to explain stuff.

And will you get rid of that fucking avatar!

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:50 PM by iblong2u

Does it stress you out? Welcome to my world.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:51 PM by mirandasworld

Miranda, I think you need to read brightpinklady's blog.

I'm so, so sorry, baby.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:52 PM by pwk_lilsis

Busted!

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:54 PM by bethanybear

Guys, please.

I feel like shutting the site down.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:55 PM by mirandasworld

You're on aim, right now. I can see it.

Open up to me! Now!

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:56 PM by iblong2u

Noooooo!!!!! I'd DIE if you shut your blog down!

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:56 PM by cheerjunkie

Who are you?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 3:57 PM by mirandasworld

You son of a bitch!

Is that true? I don't trust Sandra, anymore than I do you, but did you do it?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:00 PM by mirandasworld

The part about the three of them leaving Mellow Mushroom is true.

So sorry you had to find out like this, Miranda.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:01 PM by bethanybear

most people aren't sure of what they realy want in life. I received this letter from a friend on the computer, did what it told me to, and within a week, everything I had wished came true!! Here's an exact copy, this really works!!!!

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1. To yourself, say the name of the only guy or girl you wanna be with 3 times!

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2. Think of something you wanna accomplish within the next week and say it to your self 6 times!!

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3. If you had 1 wish what would it be? say it to yourself 9 times!!!

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4. Think of something that you want to happen between you and that 1special person and say it to your self 12 times!!!

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5. Now, heres the hard part! Pick only 1 of these wishes and as you scroll down focus and concentrate on it and think on nothing else but that wish.

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Now make one last &final wish about that one wish that you picked.

After reading this, you have 1 hour to send it out to 15 people, and what you wished for will come true within in one week!

u only get one chance!!!!! Now scroll down and think of your crush!!!

Keep going down

Keep going

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First Example:

Take Barbra Wallace.. She was a pretty lucky girl, up till she got this same chain letter. She had a crush on the same kid since kindergarden. when she got this mail she didn't pay any attention to it. She just thought, no big deal. And deleted it. The next day her dad got fired and her mom dies in a car crash. If she would have sent the letter none of that would have happened and her mom would be alive.

Second Example:

Try Freddie D. Now Freddie D. was your average nerd. Had glasses, was short and chubby, was in gifted. All the signs of your total dork. He also received this letter and sent it to 51 people in the hour. Now, like Barbra, he had a crush on a girl since 3rd grade. The next day after sending the chain the girl confessed her love for him ever since 3rd grade. Freddie D. finally had the courage to ask her out, and of course, she had been waiting to yes to that for years. They grew up and married each other to live happily forever.

Third Example:

Now if you couldn't relate to the others, this'll get ya hooked. Listen to this. A kid named Jordan Johnson was just getting on AOL to check his mail. He was a quiet kid, not that popular but not a geek either. he was just normal. He saw he had mail from his friend. It was this exact letter. Now Jordan Johnsen was a smart kid and he knew what could happen if he didnt pass it on. He simply pulled a few friends from his buddy list and sent it along. The next day, about that same time, he got a phone call. It said he had won the lottery! then his dad came home and bought him a new bike! His mom bought him Nintendo64 and play station! His grandmother sent him a new computer, and his best friend gave him tickets to the concert he wanted to go to, Kid Rock and Limp Bizkit! Then he inherited a brand-new tv from his aunt! He was goin' wild! the next day his secret crush asked him out, and they have been going out ever since.

Now, you heard the stories. I know which person i'd rather be, but thats up to you. I wouldn't wanna end up like Barbra but thats only me. We all want what we cant have but now's ur chance to go out with that special somebody ur waiting for. Take it or leave it. If you send this to-

1 person- you will lose all luck in ur love life.....forever!!!!!

10 people- your crush will say they like you as a friend......ONLY!!!!!

15 people- your crush will say they like you

20 people- your crush will ask you out!

25 people- your crush will kiss you!!

30 people - Your crush will have sex with you

35 people or more- All of the above!!

Don't blow it, it's ur chance to shine! Have everything u wanted, and more! Now, complaining cus u dont have any friends. Well theres an answer 4 everything. It's simple, just go in a chat room, pick some names and send away! but here's the catch.....you only have one hour to send it after being read. Please pass this to everyone u know and keep it goin

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:01 PM by wait4me

Wait4me? Are you really in the Philippines?

Is the whole world watching my life go into nuclear meltdown on live tv?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:03 PM by mirandasworld

Fuck you, slut. I don't owe you any explanations.

All I wanted out of this was to have some fun. Why couldn't we have fun? I had fun, and SO DID YOU! But you're so fucking uptight that you won't even kiss or offer a feel, unless we're alone, and in the dark! And that's MY fault?

You're the Queen Bee of Tease. But when it comes time to actually express that you love me, rather than just post pretty words in a blog, your arms wrap tight around yourself and your legs snap shut, and you're all "Oooooo, no, baby! I'm not ready for that!"

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:05 PM by iblong2u

Ryan, I see from your I.P. you're posting from the Bean.

Just out of curiousity, what time you plan on getting home, tonight?

No reason. Just...curious.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:07 PM by onetoomany

NO! You don't get to do that! You don't get to play the victim!

You just couldn't believe that there was a girl out there who wasn't going to play the role of your little blow-up sex doll. I told you all along that we were not going all the way! I was straight up with you, from day one! And now I find out that you were lying to me, from day one!

And don't tell me that I didn't express my love to you! I expressed it every day, in my poems, in my laughter, in my tears, in my heart. But you weren't listening.

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:09 PM by mirandasworld

You want the truth? Here it is, straight up.

You were the best thing that ever happened to me.

But I was the best thing that ever happened to you, too. Do I get any credit for that?

Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:15 PM by iblong2u

I didn't cheat on you! You want credit for that?

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Posted 2/25/2005 at 4:25 PM by mirandasworld