Arrrgggh! So much has happened the last two days! Sorry I haven't updated, but you guys get all the news in one scoop, so everything's good.

First of all, yesterday was a blast!

We saw Brittany at the Galleria and she looked like she hadn't slept in two days. As she walked past us in the food court, Lizzie let her new top slip out of the bag, so Brittany would know she got the last one. Oops!

And then, after letting me stop by for confession (Good Friday, you know), we went on to Lizzie's, but once we got there, we got a little...sidetracked. Matt? One word of advice? When it comes to girls, don't let the little head do the thinking for the big head, okay?

So we scratched that idea and went back to my house to watch dvd's all night. But guess who was waiting on us? Ethan! For you guys out of town, Ethan is like the starting quarterback. And he drives a really awesome car. He's kind of cute, I guess. But anyway, he said he had heard that we were looking for a drummer, and guess what? He plays. Is that crazy? I've known him since, like, what, grade school? And I had no idea!

Well, at first, I wasn't sure he was all that great a fit, cause he's this, athlete, and all, which is so not us, but hey, Lizzie convinced me that this was this huge gift horse, and if I started checking his teeth, I was a little bit crazy. So I invited him to today's practice.

Guys, he was freakin' awesome. I was crying. He was playing on this old set of drums, that we had scrounged up, and even on a set he was unfamiliar with, he rocked our world. And listen: he's got Rolands.

So SUCK on that, Ryan!

Now, guys, say hello to dark journey's new All-Star drummer, Ethan Craft!

And finally, on the way back from practice, some stupid things happened between me and Lizzie, and Gordo too. And I just want to say this, just to them.

Guys, I'm sorry for some of what I said, more for the way I said it. But I think you guys said some things you shouldn't have said, too. I hope you can forgive me, and I know I'm ready to forgive you, if you want. But in another sense, I still think I'm right. I still need to make my own decisions. And if I screw up, then I guess I just screw up. And if so, I hope you'll be there for me, because I'll always need you. That'll never change. And that's all I'm gonna say, about that.

Oh, and SA? Don't let the doubters chase you away. You don't have to stop, if you don't want to. Yeah, it's a little scary, but scary doesn't always have to be bad.

I'm at Lizzie's now, stn.

We just saw this jazz concert on youtube with John Pizzarelli, and it was sooo cool! I'm hyped up over the Epiphone. I went to ebay, and I'm looking at a Casino that's right at about $250. I can't believe that price, cause one guy on this forum said the casino was the best out there. It's early in the auction though. What do you guys think?

Can't wait til tomorrow! Lizzie and Gordo and I are rockin the Galleria. See everyone there!

Bethany's brother got shipped out to Iraq today.

All of this confuses me. I know what we're doing is good. I know the guys over there have this job to do. I know if they're given a chance, people in Iraq can make a better country, and we can help. But I also know that I want our guys home. Please, Mr. President. Promise me that we won't be there forever.

So depressed.

Trey's potential drummer stood us up. Didn't even show up. What is it about freakin' drummers? They are so...undependable.

Well, on a good note, Lizzie and Gordo have informed me that they've both gotten off work for Friday, and want to take me shopping, to get my mind off everything. I think I might need it by then. Thanks, guys. You rock.

[1. Name/nickname] Miranda/Candy calls me Randy
[2. Birthday] August 25
[3. How old are you? Do you like your age?] 16, wanna be 17, same as Gordo
[4. Astrological sign?] Virgo (no jokes, please) but I don't really follow that stuff
[5. Where were you born?] Sisters of Mercy
[6. How many siblings do you have? Do you get along with them?] 1 little sister, whom I adore. She's really too young to get under my skin, right now.

**SCHOOL/FRiENDS**
[7. What school do you go to?] North Hillridge High School
[8. What school are you going to after your finished with this one?] UCLA
[9. Are some of your friends going to that school with you?] Don't know yet. Lizzie might, CJ and Gordo probably won't. Don't know about Bethany.
[10. Who is your best friend(s)?] Lizzie and Gordo.
[11. What are your school colors/mascot?] Navy and Silver/Panthers
[12. Do you/your friends have school spirit?] sometimes, if someone from another school tries to put us down, but it's not a competitive kind of thing, where my school always has to be the best.
[13. Do you like your school?] I like most of the students. Wish they offered more than one year of French.
[14. Have you ever ditched class by yourself?] By myself? No. *whew*
[15. Have you ever ditched with your friend(s)?] *drat* errr....yessss.
[16. Have you ever dropped a class?] We can't do that.
[17. Ever skipped a whole day of school?] Went to Mexico with my family in the eighth grade.
[18. Ever gotten suspended?] nope.

**FAVORiTES**
[19. Ice cream:] cookie dough
[20. Color:] silver
[21. Beverage:] Mountain Dew Code Red
[22. Number:] ?
[23. Famous person:] This week? Tom Welling.
[24. Website:] you're here
[25. Football team:] UCLA, Arizona, Alabama
[26. Basketball team:] UCLA
[27. Baseball team:] PADRES!
[28. Sport overall:] Soccer, bowling (sorry, private joke)
[29. Food:] pizza and sopapilla
[30. State in the U.S.:] Colorado
[31. Flower:] White Rose
[32. Subject in school:] History
[33. Type of music to listen to:] any kind .
[34. Music artist(s):] too many to name
[35. Weather condition:] I'm a sun-bunny.

**YOU EVER'S**
[36. Gone fishing?] once. baaaadddd experience
[37. Went camping/to camp?] yep
[38. Been on a cruise?] yep
[39. Watched the movie "Titanic"?] 31 times
[40. Went caroling at Christmas-time?] yep
[41. Snuck out of your house at night?] I plead the fifth.
[42. Stolen your best friend's boy/girlfriend?] NO!
[43. Stolen anything?] It's...complicated
[44. Went skydiving?] noooo . but I want to.
[45. Been to ground zero where 9/11 happened?] one day
[46. Been to more than 5 states in the U.S.?] yes
[47. Voted in a presidential election?] hello? 16?
[48. Met a really really famous person?] yes
[49. If so, who?] Aaron Carter, Frankie Muniz, Chris Rock
[50. Been to a professional sports event (i.e NFL game)?] lots

**DO YOU... (random)**
[51. Own a LIVESTRONG bracelet?] no
[52. Know someone personally/related to someone who is famous?] yeah
[53. Know the Muffin Man?] lol...yea
[54. Like strawberry-kiwi flavored things?] yesssssss .
[55. Like sarcasm?] big time
[56. Pre-judge people?] sometimes, but I'm usually right
[57. Have a short-attention-span or sometimes think you do?] I'm sorry. What did you say?
[58. Think you were blonde in your past life or blonde now?] nah
[59. Get bored easily?] yeaa .
[60. Like surveys?] SURE
[61. Hate when surveys are over?] NO

Break is here, and we're practicing all day, every day, this week. Got the last song down today for Bridgette's wedding. Always and Forever.

Oh, and Trey's found someone, a possible drummer. He's supposed to audition tomorrow. Fingers crossed!

We've been getting a lot of hang-ups on the family phone, this weekend. Don't know if that's more of Ryan and Sandra and Brittany's doing, or something else.

Two entries in one day! This is a first for me

I feel a little better, now.

Thanks, everyone, for this morning, and church was a big help. It seemed like everything at mass was talking to me this morning.

Can't wait for Easter, next Sunday.

Sometimes I wish that you could see
The way you look at me
If you only saw things through my eyes
Would you finally understand
Or just like grains of sand
Would it slip right through our hands
Time will keep moving on and on

I don't wanna lose you
But maybe I might have to
It's all I really can do
To save myself
Is this what it's come to
Deep inside we both knew
The day would come I'd have to
Save myself

Love that lifts you up I've found
Can also wear you down
If you could only hear my prayer
I tried to fly without my wings
But there's so many things
That were left up in the air
Time will keep moving on and on

You reach a point in life
You have to decide
Between what you want
And what you need to survive