My mom came up to my bedroom twice last night, to tell me that Ryan was on the phone, but I stayed under the covers, and didn't even roll over. He's called three more times, so far today. I don't know what's going on, but I can't talk to him, right now.

I finally got out of bed this morning, and took a shower, but then I just put on a fresh pair of pj's. I've pretty much stayed in my room all day, just sitting on the bed, playing the guitar, and trying to write.

My dad poked his head in about an hour ago, and said that they could go ahead and end my grounding tonight, and I could go out, if I wanted to, but I just shook my head, and played.

It's a long lonely road
Where do I go?
Looking for someplace that feels like home
Been searchin' so long
Where did I go wrong?
Maybe the answer's somewhere beyond

The stars in the sky
And who knows why

hook here

We all fall down
Life's taking its toll
It's all out of control
Yeah we all fall down
It's my dignity that's saving me tonight

As I walk through this maze
Is this just a phase
Will all my tomorrows be this way?
The night is so black
In front and in back
Sometimes it's so dark and you don't know where you're at

Like a star way up high
Droppin' out of the sky

hook here

bridge:

Lift me up
So I can see
Outside of me
And what could be
A different life

Love you.

Posted 2/26/2005 at 6:22 PM by pwk_lilsis